Weird vivid dreams

Not sure why and what is causing them as I am not on any prescriptions right now other than blood pressure meds. Been on those for many years now. So I dream last night that I murdered 2 people. In my dream I knew them but in real life no one I knew. And everyone around me was trying to cover it up in the dream. I was getting really frustrated cause I knew it was wrong and I wanted to go to police to report the crime. I knew I was gonna go to prison but I rather be in prison than have the guilt. Maybe it reflects what is going on IRL with some guilt I have over family members not able to pay their mortgage due to job loss. And all the good blessings that have been bestowed to me and DH. I don't know. Really tired of the vivid dreams though. Seems they are getting more and more frequent. Not sure if it has anything to do with Lyme or not. Or just some weird side effect of getting older, maybe hormones. Not sure. Will have to ask DR again when I see him in couple of months....

Really hate this disease

I hate how some days you are ok then other days what in the world happened. Today of course both my hands do not want to work. They are both numb and to say its difficult to do anything would be an understatement! Making breakfast took forever. Then I grab up my pills to take and must have dropped my blood pressure one cause I put them down on table and its missing. I look everywhere for it worried one of the dogs took it. As I am heading back to den, praying, I look down and there it is. Thank God!! Someone indeed had it in their mouth but had spit it out. I am pretty sure who had it and just glad they didn't ingest it.

I have so much to do inregards to my treatment. I need to call around and see who will draw my blood and give me vial back, do MRI, and need to drop off my prescription for the antibiotic. Oh also need to call about ordering Probioitcs. Will have to do all that tomorrow I guess. Heading out to vet and it just takes me forever to do the simplest things. Last several days have felt like I am walking through molases. I really dislike that feeling.

Hello

Thought I would start a blog to document my progress during my 2nd attempt at treating my chronic Lyme. I have a odd sense of humor and sometimes can be dark. So if that offends you might want to go elsewhere. But I am always truthful and won't sugar coat things. I find a lot in the Lyme community tend to do that. And I would never blast someones choice or non choice of treatment. Very personal decision I think. Heck I took almost a year off from treatment. I think you have to do that to keep your sanity. Anyway will try to post as much as possible. Thanks for looking and reading!